The slippery slope.

Since last Friday I've been having a losing streak. I know it's not my knowledge, not my trade setups but it's my psychology.

I have not forgiven myself for blowing up. And worst, I'm tired. I'm tired that I keep blowing up after a week of good trading. I'm tired of keep trying. I'm tired and finally on Tuesday night I curled up in my bed and gave myself a good cry.

But I also made another important decision this week to stay on. To keep fighting. To keep trying. I will not give up.

My good wife said something very wise. She told me that because I have gotten most things in life easy, I'm not used to going beyond myself. That's why consistently being excellent is uncharted territory for me.

It is true. I have been blessed with some intelligence and so I am able to do most things in life ok. Unfortunately, nothing very very well. Nothing excellent. And in trading, you need to be head and shoulders above everyone before you can make it.

*wife says, actually I did things well. THAT's the problem. Now I have to go for excellence... *

So, after much crying, much heartaches I'm still here in front of my PC. I'll have to keep the consistency and overcome myself.

Wife says, when I overcome myself, she'll buy me a plague that says: Congratulations Eric, you have overcomed yourself.

I'm going for it.